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Rssll5’s last post everrrrr
my computer crashed. The hard drive and everything on it is gone. Period. No recovering the various bits and pieces of me that were located in that little laptop. Not only am I going to have to recreate the 6,000 song iTunes library I had just finished restoring, but I’ve lost everything . Notes I had saved, texts and I had photo captured, thousands of pictures I had worked hard to save and index in organized folders with clever little names. I lost the letter my parents wrote me when I left the house, and I lost loads of sermon notes. I lost the all the cute texts Sara sent me when we were dating, my only source of encouragement at times. I lost so many songs I’d written and even more bits and pieces of things I had yet to put together. I lost it all. Everything I was and have been up until now, was somehow documented within the confines of that stupid little hard drive. Needless to say, it’s gone.
That being said, I have an ex-girlfriend who hates my guts and refuses to talk to me. But I was reminded of her every time I opened up my laptop…
There’s a slew of old highschool friends looking to rekindle the friendship we once had. Looking to emulate the last few years of our lives and the thriving relationship we once had.
Maybe I should take the new hard drive as a kind of sign. Maybe I clean my slate. Forget everything I’ve always known myself to be. Actually screw that, Maybe I should throw my slate off the side of 45 South and go find a new one and start COMPLETELY fresh. I want to delete this blog and start a new one. Maybe I can just delete everything I’ve ever posted.
God makes all things new right? Maybe he wants me to be new, forget everything, and live my life starting now. At 5:59 AM on the morning of Tuesday, December 7, 2010.
If my old friends are really my friends then perhaps they’ll be in my new life, but maybe not.
I really don’t know but I’m down with this old self. Time to start over..
Follow my NEW blog at rssll512.tumblr.com
This old me is gone.
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This is like stuck inside my head and I can’t get it out. It’s kind of fueling my current mood so I’m not sure how much of a good thing it is. But something about it soothes my achy brain. Either way, it’s on repeat until further notice.
wait wait wait, my original is stuck in your head? ahh. that makes me really happy, i’m glad you like it :))
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For those of you who aren’t friends with me on facebook..
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its russell :)
Hmm, I see the resemblance.
big mouth and tiny eyes? oh and high, white socks.
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I’m sorry
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I want to have sex with this car
gallardo
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its russell :)
(via matthewkemph)
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I miss my friend. She isn’t dead, but she might as well be.
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Beautiful Women
My Kryptonite
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my statues on fb
either lyrics or youtube videos.
i have no life.
whatever bro lyric statuses are where it’s at. idk if you’ve seen my FB recently but i always get crap for posting lyrics all the time. haha
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We are all just trying to get through.
get through these weeks until the weekends. Get through this exam, this class, this job. I think we focus on trying to survive way too much and do not focus on trying to live enough. stay with me. We bog ourselves down, focusing on just getting through and we miss so so many chances to do awesome things and for Christ to do awesome things through us. I know that days when i wake up with a specific goal in mind i get so so much more done and i find myself surviving after all.
For example. tomorrow i’ll wake up and i’ll decide to spend my day looking for someone who needs a smile, intentionally looking for someone, for a group of someones, and i’ll pray that God will show me them. If you’re praying for God to help you be His light in the world, He’ll help you do it. And before you know you’re day is over and you’ve spent 100% of your time being used by God (which is the best feeling in the world) and 0% of your time worrying, being stressed, and whining.
I’m mostly reminding myself of all this stuff, but maybe you could try to find 1 thing to focus on tomorrow and see if it doesn’t make your Monday that much easier.
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Good thing God’s in control..
Cause if not i’d be freakin’ out right about now..
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cut ties and run.
one of these days i’m going to leave this town for the last time. never looking back. Idk when, but someday. This was my town, but i need to cut ties and run. Say goodbye to everyone i’ve ever loved, everyone who has ever loved me, and go live life. Come back in like 10 years. I’m tired of looking back at times when i lived, i need to go live. I can’t do that if i’m still stuck here, living off of high school friendships and memories.
I was blessed, high school was seriously amazing, so many friends and memories, but i seriously need to move on now.
dkfadkfljg
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It’s hard
To force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone.
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SO..
the other day, monday to be exact, i took an ECON exam that i didn’t have much time to prepare for. I’m sitting in the exam, trying to employ good test taking techniques but i end up finished with the 25 question exam in literally 10 minutes.. I look around the room and realize that the rest of the class has yet to venture onto page 2 of the exam and i start to get a little worried. My professor drops one of our Exam grades so i stand up, sure that i must have miserable failed the exam, and turn in my scantron and walk out. My professor gives me a death stare, as if i was insulting him by finishing his exam in 10 minutes. Anyways fast-forward to 30 seconds ago. I check my exam score and got a 98. I’m going to feel like a boss for the rest of the afternoon..
