Rssll5’s last post everrrrr

 my computer crashed. The hard drive and everything on it is gone. Period. No recovering the various bits and pieces of me that were located in that little laptop. Not only am I going to have to recreate the 6,000 song iTunes library I had just finished restoring, but I’ve lost everything . Notes I had saved, texts and I had photo captured, thousands of pictures I had worked hard to save and index in organized folders with clever little names. I lost the letter my parents wrote me when I left the house, and I lost loads of sermon notes. I lost the all the cute texts Sara sent me when we were dating, my only source of encouragement at times. I lost so many songs I’d written and even more bits and pieces of things I had yet to put together. I lost it all. Everything I was and have been up until now, was somehow documented within the confines of that stupid little hard drive. Needless to say, it’s gone.

That being said, I have an ex-girlfriend who hates my guts and refuses to talk to me. But I was reminded of her every time I opened up my laptop…

There’s  a slew of old highschool friends looking to rekindle the friendship we once had. Looking to emulate the last few years of our lives and the thriving relationship we once had.

Maybe I should take the new hard drive as a kind of sign. Maybe I clean my slate. Forget everything I’ve always known myself to be. Actually screw that, Maybe I should throw my slate off the side of 45 South and go find a new one and start COMPLETELY fresh. I want to delete this blog and start a new one. Maybe I can just delete everything I’ve ever posted.

God makes all things new right? Maybe he wants me to be new, forget everything, and live my life starting now. At 5:59 AM on the morning of Tuesday, December 7, 2010.

If my old friends are really my friends then perhaps they’ll be in my new life, but maybe not.

I really don’t know but I’m down with this old self.  Time to start over..

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This old me is gone.

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